I recently came across a quote, I came across this quote, as I was suffering from the depression alcohol gives you the day after the session.
"People who seem cold and tough have given too much of their warmth to people who didn't care."
This couldn't of come up on my screen at a weirder time, I mean it's been in the space of four days where someone has told me "I'm an ice block." But what has made me this way?
Lately, If someone seems to be into me, I either become nervous and come up with the weirdest excuse, or want to be there friend. Is it right to live a life where your afraid of the hurt that could happen in the future, or how the past still burns a hole in that 'cold' beating heart? How every question that roams around in your head is a question unanswered.
Why do we always sprinkle bullshit with sugar, thinking its going to make a cupcake.
I don't think its learning how to be single again whether it was for a long period of time or a short one. It's also not about losing all love and affection, or getting over someone. But always a state of mind. People teach you how to be with out them, so that's what they do. I think getting over someone is letting yourself feel and accepting everything for what is.
Only in a short period of time I have learned that people leave. Whether they planned to or wanted to they do. Even if they promised a million times they wouldn't.
All we really want is a clear mind and happy heart.
Letting it all go is hard, whether its the way they kissed, their scent or even just the sound of their footsteps. We let it all go because its who they were and not who they are.